Thursday, October 9, 2008
I've decided i need to be more spontaneous. stop thinking about things so much and just do them. or else nothing that i want is ever gonna happen. like today, there were so many things i wanted to do, that i should have done, but i waited too long and missed my chance. so tomorrow i'm gonna try much harder to just do the things that i want, not think about it, so hopefully it will be better (:
As if i can do that. you know, making things better in my own way is LONELINESS. that would be the product.
That is the reason why i turned myself into the old me. the real me before i met him and before we had this thing. and now that he is gone. i am back to being me.
The old me would be the one that hates going to school, always absent from class, i listen to that teacher. :) i mean, my classmate just told me that i changed, she said a "bad" change.
Well, he did too. that is what my friend told me. she said that he was better being with me and not with the other girl.
I always say that I am okay. But i really don't know what i really feel with the reality that i have no boyfriend and that he has a new- 2 weeks after the break up.
It made me realize that we forget who we really are when we love and that we are willing to give all that we have just to let the person notice us and love us in return even though that certain someone doesn't even like you.
I mean, the truth hurts. but i wish it would be less painful. the pain is what i am complaining about.
HELP. :(
PS. absent for school again.
6:16 PM
