Friday, August 1, 2008
Drama blog everyone, beware.
Okay, I don't know what's wrong with me.
I am so sensitive this week.
I always end up trying to hold my tears whenever he's in front of me. He disappoints me. But he asked me why am I always angry. I didn't replied to his question. I have no idea, my heart was aching, really, it was painful, I was trying my best not to cry. :'(
My reasons: he is always playing with something whenever he visits me in my classroom. i can't talk to someone who is doing something while i am talking. he was so insensitive while i was totally feeling my pain, holding it.
Sometimes, I realized that maybe he just like me because he can do anything to me. In one day, all I want is his hug, him holding my hands and just a conversation.
Yesterday, I realized that he doesn't want to hold my hands anymore. While he was studying for their exam in Physics (I gave some answers to him), I held his hand, and after 2 seconds he let me go. I just looked at him, he didn't even look back at me. I was speechless after the incident.
I cried last night.
I was so sad. and hurt.
From Mica Ocampo's multiply blog:
Why do people fall in love?
When their not certain that this time everything will be different. When their not certain that the person they`re seeing now won`t turn out to be another asshole. When their not certain if their hearts are in good hands. When their not certain what this time will do to them. In short, everything is uncertain.
And yet, we still find ourselves giving in.
I can`t speak for everyone. But I know why I still continue to fall in love regardless of bad experiences, endless nights of crying, getting wasted over and over again and my fair share of heartaches.
Falling in love for me is unavoidable. No matter how much I`d much rather choose to not fall in love, the outcome always results to the same thing: Me losing yet another battle against my own will and yes, falling in love.
Yes, I always find myself giving in. Giving my all to him. Esp. my LOVE.
Baby, if you always hurt me, and I try to act that I am okay, please know that...
I LOVE YOU...
:'(
4:22 AM
