Monday, July 28, 2008Okay, I really admit that I am a very insecure, how others look so thin and slender. How others hair is just so perfect. How their legs are so flawless.
I am FLAWFULL. I hate seeing myself with a lot of flaws. I am very friendly, but what people that does not know me, see my outer appearance first. And when it comes to that I really have a low self esteem.
Yesterday I bought the July issue of candy magazine with the pretty Megan on the cover. I saw an article in Hard Candy entitled "I HATE MY _____!!" That would be BODY for me. :((
DO YOU THINK YOU'RE PRETTY?
See how your Body Image IQ measures up.
Yes() No(x) Have you avoided sports or working out because you didn't want to be seen in gym clothes?
Yes(x) No() Does eating even a small amount of food make you feel fat.
Yes(x) No() Do you worry or obsess about your body not being small or thin?
Yes(x) No() Do you avoid wearing certain clothes because they make you feel fat?
Yes(x) No() Do you feel badly about yourself because you don't like your body?
Yes(x) No() Have you ever disliked your body?
Yes(x) No() Do you want to change something in your body?
Yes(x) No() Do you always compare yourself to others?
if you answered YES to four or more questions,you have a negative body image.
Yes, I really admit that, I feel really ugly because of my body. I always try to fake my smile when my friends and even my BF calls me BABOY. I know, for them it is a joke but for me, I take it as an insult. I am a very sensitive person and I tend to misunderstand people and their jokes and when it is about my body image, I always feel bad about my body and just wanted to do what the girl in Artificial Beauty did to her body. But I am not that rich to afford doing that with my body.
I tried being satisfied with my body but again, always end up hating it. :(
How could you know
That behind my eyes a sad girl cried
And how could you know
That i hurt so much inside
And how could you know
That i'm not the average girl
I'm carrying the weight of the world 4:09 AM
